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| The Garden State soundtrack fits me perfectly, like a taylor made suit.
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| Back from ingathering, in St. Louis for thanksgiving...pretty good overall. I hear that some fun times should be going down in the next few days. I got a Wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii, and it's fun. My dad actually tried to convince me that I should leave it here so he can play it because it would be too much of a distraction for me. Pssssh.
I love little kids, and I was really glad that I decided to work with them over the weekend. My 4-5th graders were awesome. Sadly I don't have the endless energy that I assume I used to have...you know when I was 10. It's a strange age with a huge variation in maturity, attention span, comprehension...but all of them were great, even though we who were running it were a bit disorganized (to say the least).
I have one question for all of you... has anyone seen... MY DONKEY?
So now I've got a few people "on the prowl" so to speak trying to find me a nice gal to settle down with. Apparantly people keep sending me back to the same choices. (*Cough Stephanie *Cough Aliza *Cough)...I guess there's only so many nice messianic Jewish ladies ~20 years old that I know. The Jewish thing isn't that huge a deal, but it'd be nice.
The next two weeks feel so disjoint from the rest of the semester. It's like they try to throw us off having a whole week of not school, just to slam us back into the habit. Trixy, trixy administration.
Please pray for me, in general, to move past my stumbling blocks, and to come back closer to Him. I haven't quite mastered making this faith my own...don't know if I ever really can, but I'm working on it. One of the many quirks of growing up in a missionary household.
I used to be the king of all things walnut. The proud tradition carries on to my brother Micha, as he becomes the keeper of the walnuts. Maybe, one day, I too can hold that proud title.
Well I thought about the army, dad said "son, your (#&*$%# high".
Lots of people have told me to go see happy feet. So maybe I will. By myself, in a 2 dollar theater.
I've done some stupid things in my life. I've broken ties I should have held tight. I've gone places I should never have been, seen things I should never have seen. But this is only a part of who I am. I am a son and an uncle and brother, a student, a tutor and a teacher, a kind and misunderstood soul. I've worked hard, won awards, played in great bands, made great friends, helped write my own game, worked at a big company, and only gone slightly insane. I work on a schedule that makes people believe I'm nocturnal. I'm scared and at peace, wondering where the next day will lead, what then next big achievement I should be aiming for is. And this does not mean never be content, but I don't want to get complaicant.
I just thought of this song for some reason:
I remember the night we met,
That night we sat entwined,
Under summer skies,
I looked into your eyes,
And you looked into mine.
You said "You're not like the rest",
And I nodded.
"No one understands me" you said,
And I nodded once again as if to agree,
That all men are indeed the same,
Somehow, you say, I was different.
For months on end I maintained a veneer of sincere interest,
As if I was listening as you relived every page of self-help and new age that you'd read,
And I went in for the kill,
I'd read the same books,
I learned to ape the motions of a sensitive human being,
And we were oh so happy,
But you found things to fix,
And I knew it was time to move on.
So now you have me completely figured out,
You feel sorry for me,
I can't express my feelings,
I can't tell the truth,
We are all alike,
At puberty I was sworn to secrecy by the international brotherhood of lying fickle males,
I can't tell you anything,
And I can't commit,
You're right,
I can't commit to you.
I will always treasure our time together,
I don't feel enough of anything to harbour the kind of disdain that you'll maintain,
You painted me into what you wanted to see,
That's fine,
But you will never know me.
"In Love" by Ben Folds
The album that William Shatner made was pretty great. It has one of the craziest bands I know, Lemon Jelly on it.
Call me, write me, do something. Life's short, live it up (with me ;) )
Oh yeah, and if you see... MY DONKEY?, let him know I'm looking for him.
-Seth
HAPPY THANKSGIVING (and to all a good night.)
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| So, a little break from probability homework. I'll try to get 2 more done before sleep takes over.
I excel at putting things off until the last second. I'm learning how much it hurts though. Did poorly (on my scale...) on my last math exam, but not poorly enough to kill my grade. Enough to scare me. Scaring me is good.
Lots of work, a little play, and a week till a week off. WEEK OFF. that sounds amazing. Lizzy's coming up in a few days, then to Wisconsin, then back to St. louie for a while. Haven't been since I don't know how long. I can't find my cord for my digital camera so I can't get the pictures off (sadface). This weekend = end of band. This weekend = lots of music coding. This weekend = not very fun.
Exam wednesday, quiz wed, quiz in the morning. hopefully I can last without exploding till next thursday. did I mention NO MORE BAND.
I'm sleepy as anything. Pray for me. More ramblings later on.
Work will have to wait till the morning.
g'night.
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| Hmm...haven't done THIS in a while. Other things I haven't done in a while: Seen most of my family, had a relaxing week, gone to CS 241 lecture, gone to church, had free time, felt at peace.
I know I know some of those are related. Some aren't. I miss writing. And not just the xanga style writing...I've started writing people's persuasive essays/responses and things for them just because I wanted the practice. They didn't even ask me to.
I'm going to ingathering (yay!) which hopefully will be a kind of turning point for me now. A turn back towards the right direction, and a renewal of spirit. I'll be sheperding 4th and 5th graders....kids are awesome.
I feel really isolated of late. I miss having a girlfriend...yes I know this is one of my common gripes....but its more than that. While I was with Kora..I felt closer to God, prayed more, focused more on him and what he wanted for me...and she wasn't even really a Christian. I have a tendancy to cut myself off from people. I had been doing better...then band started slowing down.
My dumb 360 broke. 140-180 bucks to fix it.
I'm going to be living with new roomates next year, I'm excited. Alex and I get along really well...probably the best of anyone that I've met here.
Next semester may or may not be fun, I have no idea yet (class wise). Databases, Embedded Systems, Design Patterns, ECE 205/206, Computer Music/programming.
I need a new perscription soon, my eyes start to hurt after I've been awake for too long. Also doesn't help that my work and play all revolve around staring at a computer.
I'm still glad I chose this major, but I always wonder what it would be like to be say...a business major, or a nuclear engineer...but nothing else seems interesting enough to go in full time. yeah maybe that doesn't make a ton of sense.
I need to start writing these more. they force me to think, something I avoid doing completely many days. I currently feel more alert than I have all week.
I need new music. I'm rediscovering old stuff. currently listening to sufjan stevens. I saw an amazing performance of Bernstein's Mass two weeks ago. I'll be camping out with noah to get a Wii next saturday(friday?).
My music/computer class is pretty different than what I expected. And not nearly as interesting. Oh well.
I'm too non-confrontative for my own good.
Welcome back?
-sjc
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| Kids will do anything for Seth.
http://www.thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan.cgi
What's your slogan?
Maybe I'll post a real one one of these days. For now, you'll just have to be satisfied with the fact that I really don't want to work on my music project, so here I am. And now I'm gone. (Poof!)
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